Red Light, Green Light

Driving is for deep conversations.

“Mommy drive faster. Drive like daddy.”
“Mommy get gas”
“We don’t need any gas son”
“WHY?”
“We still have some gas in our car.”
“Where’s dat garbage truck going?”
“I don’t know Q. Somewhere to get garbage.”
“It’s probably going far far away from here…” muses Q.
“Mommy what’s that?”
“What’s what?”
“What’s THAT?”
“I don’t know what you are looking at, I’m driving. I don’t know.”
“What is IT?”
I stopped at a stop sign. “WHY YOU STOP MOMMY?”

Good question. The whole point of loading two little kids up into a car is to get somewhere. Why stop?
I explained my actions, mentally checking for loopholes in my statement that could bring on the dreaded “WHY?” response that haunts my waking hours.
I have been asked WHY Snickers is a dog. Because she’s not a cat, ok? Mommy doesn’t KNOW everything! She gets tired of trying to think up answers for philosophical, biological, theological questions. ACK!
“There’s a stop sign. I stopped because the sign said to stop, and Mommy obeys the rules of the road.” I replied in a patient sounding tone.
“You not have to obey. You in CHARGE!” Q announced.
My brain when numb trying to come up with a good response to that one. I think I lost all the eighth grade math that I had been saving these years, I felt it drifting away as my brain short circuited. I started to laugh as I imagined what my life would be like if I didn’t obey and acted like a two year old. Rebelling against all forms of law, I probably would have ended up in an alley or something.
I realized something I would never have admitted as a teenager. It is good that I am NOT in charge of the universe. The law is good. Not just the law of the land, which can keep you from peril but are flawed, but especially the laws of a holy, loving God.
“So then, the law is holy, and the commandment is holy, righteous and good.”-Romans 7:12
The law shows how much God loves me, but it’s hard to realize that rules can equal love until you have a small one.
“But this is the covenant which I will make with the house of Israel after those days,” declares the Lord, “I will put my law within them and on their heart I will write it; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.” Jeremiah 31:33

Thank you, Jesus for being the perfect sacrifice, for making me holy. Thank you for giving me the law to show my need for a Savior. Thank you for not leaving me to follow the law by myself, You hold my hand and guide me, and very often, you carry me. Because of your sacrifice, when I sin and break the law, I am still perfect in your sight (Hebrews 10).
holy experience

3 thoughts on “Red Light, Green Light

  1. Okay Joann- I really wish you would write a devotional book- chuck full of all your stories that somehow always pull a wonderful point from scripture. Sometimes in Bible study groups I feel like the woman leading them (or the writer of whatever book) is desperatly digging for an example from her own personal life to use. Example: the other day a lady was talking about her old pink shoes that she wouldn't get rid of. Made no sense to me. Anyway- you have a gift, and it gets me thinking every day! Love you!

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  2. Well, if you got something out of it, it was all God, not me. I am blogging on little sleep, less common sense, and a little bit of crazy. I guess God really does use the weak. I can say without hesitation that it's all Him. So exciting isn't it?
    p.s. I bet if you really thought about old pink shoes, you could find something in it…maybe a new post for your blog? hehehe.

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